Valentine's Day.

Valentine's Day, a day to show love to a significant other or family member. A time to give gifts and show as much love as you want/can.  Or also known for "The Saint Valentine's Day massacre" Ha. But anyway... Being a single man has it's advantages.. A lot of down time to be one of them. Which allows me to just try and relax and catch up on some reading, writing music or just even some prayer. These past couple weeks I have had a lot of that, and it just made me feel better about myself. Also I've been working out more which has tons of effect! But today I spend valentine's day alone..well sort of, ha. Yet it was filled with some fun stuff as well. To start off I did my morning workouts, and I came across this across this couple! They stopped me and asked me to take their picture, so I proceeded to. While I was doing that, I kindly asked them about their life and it amazed me how a couple so old can last that long. As morning became afternoon I was stuck at home doing nothing, did some reading and ate a little bit. Then I took my sister to the ER which was a little scary. But throughout the afternoon I see all these smiles on peoples faces, and I'm just loving it. Anyway..i need to get to the point of this blog lol.

Love is an amazing gift you guys. Get this:

He loved you & thought about you constantly, even before anyone knew your name.

“13 For it was You who created my inward parts; You knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I will praise You because I have been remarkably and wonderfully made.Your works are wonderful, and I know this very well.15 My bones were not hidden from You when I was made in secret, when I was formed in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all my days were written in Your book and planned before a single one of them began.  17 God, how difficult Your thoughts are for me to comprehend; how vast their sum is! 18If I counted them, they would outnumber the grains of sand; when I wake up, I am still with You.” ~ Psalm 139:13-18

He loves you so much that He know everything about you.

“But even the hairs of your head are all numbered.” ~ Matthew 10:30

He protects those who love Him.

14 “Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him; I will protect him, because he knows my name. 15 When he calls to me, I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him and honor him. 16 With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.” ~ Psalm 91:14-16

His love for you has no end.

 ”1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever. 2 Give thanks to the God of gods, for his steadfast love endures forever. 3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords, for his steadfast love endures forever;

4 to him who alone does great wonders, for his steadfast love endures forever; 5 to him who by understanding made the heavens, for his steadfast love endures forever; 6 to him who spread out the earth above the waters, for his steadfast love endures forever; 7 to him who made the great lights, for his steadfast love endures forever; 8 the sun to rule over the day, for his steadfast love endures forever; 9 the moon and stars to rule over the night, for his steadfast love endures forever” ~ Psalm 136:1-9

Nothing will keep you from His love.

38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. ~ Romans 8:38-39

In love, He died to save you.

“6 For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly.7 For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— 8 but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” ~ Romans 5:6-8

So on this Valentine’s day, know that He loves you more than you will understand.

     Although I did not have anyone to share this day with, I'm still loving the fact that I am loved conditionally and completely!

 

Update.

It has been nine days since I have posted about getting fit and into shape. I feel like things are going great for the time being. My daily routine is comfortable but I feel like it needs more intensity. It consists of: - stretching (cause stretching is always important to prevent any injuries) - 3.1 mile morning run/jog (around my neighborhood) - weighted sprints ( I use a 30lb dumbbell in a backpack) - Abdominal workout (russian twist, side plank, plank with reach, and bicycles. 15 reps each) - Chest and Arms ( basic push ups and incline push ups, dumbbell curls.) - P90x (selected workouts before bed. Ab ripper X, yoga and legs and backs )

That is basically what I have been doing every morning and night for the past nine days. Hope I see some more improvements soon.

Real Productivity.

So we live in a world that likes to measure productivity. The only thing that matters in life to people is what you make of yourself, how well you’re doing for yourself, how many degrees you have, how much money you have, how many people you know, how many places you’ve been, and how much you can get done in a single 9-5 work day. Everyone wants to measure your life by their own skewed definition of productivity. I haven’t been real productive lately, by any of the definitions above, which has been a real conversation starter with God and I in the past few weeks.

“God, I just feel so lame, I feel like I’m not getting anywhere, I feel like I’m not making progress with anything, I feel like days are going by, while my life is at a stand still, and I feel like everyone I know is just doing so much more with their life than I am! I just want to make progress with something and see results! I want to achieve something!”

This monologue was rehearsed daily, until God graciously directed my attention to a different, revised mindset as He usually graciously, and lovingly does lol.

“People will measure your life by anything and everything visible. I measure your life by anything and everything invisible. You could make millions in single work day, you could create the next most innovative piece of technology out there, you could write a book, you could re-do your kitchen, you could help 20 people with all their emotional issues, you could teach a class, you could solve world hunger… But if you and I don’t talk, you didn’t get anywhere that day. I don’t care about how much you get done physically. I care about How much you got done spiritually. Did you learn something new? Did you take on a new characteristic of mine? Did you learn to care about people like I do? Did you learn something new about who I am? Did my example change your attitude about something? Did you decide to trust me more today? Did you decide to stop worrying yet? Have you realized that you’ve been so busy with jobs that you have had no time to work on the only thing I care about… your heart? But of course not, because your mind is on tasks and not on people. Your mind is on measuring productivity with everyone else’s definition and not on mine”.

This checked me… As it should.

…Sad truth- We are very much a thing oriented society, where as we should be a people oriented society. The only thing we have to hold over one another is who has the most toys at the end of his/her life, Who got the farthest, Who became the wealthiest… While people suffer emotionally everyday, because we’re too busy being productive and not caring about what God cares about. When I pick up a bible, I tend to read as much as I can in a single sitting, instead of focusing on a concept, and letting it change me. I think that’s a problem. The bible can’t be life changing if you dont let it change your life. It’s not about what or how much you read, it’s about letting it change you. If we’re not changing from day to day spiritually, for the better, we’re not being very productive.

“Intense love does not measure, it gives”- Mother Theresa

But we cannot give love if we first do not receive it through the time we spend with God. So if you wanna get somewhere today, spend time on your heart, ask God what needs to be fixed and let Him reveal things to you.

Hopefully that hit someone like it hit me.

Well, have a productive day! :)

Videography or Photography?

I am trying to determine which i should do. I mean I do love taking pictures, but I also like taking videos! Currently I am shooting with a nikon D5000, but the only negative I do not like is that there is no way I could hook up an external mic. So would it be worth it to upgrade to a D90? I don't know. I will just have to see. But to show you some of my work I attached a video. It is a promo for this event in my local community. Tell me what you think. [vimeo http://www.vimeo.com/36399906 w=398&h=224]

Dedication to fitness!

Okay so im going to try and get my body back into shape! I have had p90x on my computer for the longest but have yet started to do it. So... i am going to start now! I just finished a 30min ab workout, so hopefully i can continue to do it! Also i have been running in the morning, so that is a great start too! Next is my diet! Hah wish me luck!

"the community"

I'm really excited to start this project called "the community". What I am doing is going out and interviewing people about their lives and what they go through on daily basis and how their lives have changed. So I hope that when people watch the videos they be encouraged or get something out of it. Be on the look out for episode number one it in March!

Crossing the Line

I remember when I was a kid, everything was so clear. I could always tell right from wrong. I even had a list of things I thought I would never do.  

As time passes, the black and white begin to blend. Doing the right thing becomes harder. Sometimes I even end up doing more harm than good while trying to do the right thing. It’s okay, I tell myself, at least my intentions were good.

 

And then I am faced with a true test of character. An irresistible offer. I tell myself to pull away, but I’m not strong enough. I tell myself to be careful. I take each step slowly and thoughtfully. My eyes are focused on the ground as I watch my steps. Till suddenly, I look back and realize that I’ve already crossed the line.

 

Now what?

 

It’s already too late. There’s no turning back. So I keep my eyes on the ground, on these seemingly insignificant steps. The line is only getting further away, what’s ahead is an abyss of dirty gray.

 

My moral compass has never failed me before. Sure there were times when I hesitated, wondered, or even gave in, but never when it involved hurting someone else. And the worst part is, it doesn’t feel wrong. I can’t feel the guilt. Do I really just not care anymore? Am I simply too broken, too drained to worry about someone else? Or am I just too comfortable in my current stage of self delusion to think of someone else?

 

A Divided Life Equals A Miserable Life

So many of us find following God’s words to be so difficult in our everyday lives. We try to read our bibles and follow what it says, but at the same time, we try to act normal and fit in with the rest of society. It just doesn’t work for us, and therefore we feel miserable.  Allow me to bring this closer to home for you.  

The bible says:“Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake, to EVERY AUTHORITY instituted among men: whether to the king, as the supreme authority, or to governors who are sent by him to punish those who do wrong and to commend those who do right”. (1 peter 2:13)

 

 But we bash our president when he doesnt agree with our views, and disrespect our teachers when their actions hinder our personal comforts, all the while claiming that we’re following God’s word.

 

The bible says: “Finally, all of you live in harmony, with one another, be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble, Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing”. (1 Peter 3:8)

 

 But for some reason its difficult for us to love as brothers when someone is acting like anything but your brother, or throw off an insult, when it was behind your back or about something sensitive. We almost cant help but yell when someone yells at us, and we almost cant help but call someone an idiot after they’ve called us a moron.

 

We can’t help but be miserable, when we want to love God and still act like everyone else. Maybe you don’t think you want to act like everyone else, but you still curse when they curse, laugh at whatever they laugh at, spend 2 hours on the way you look every morning, and don’t even claim Christ when you’re in a secular environment. Then you sit back and wonder why Christianity doesn’t seem to be working for you. Christianity is an all or nothing kind of deal. It’s almost like it was made so that if you tried to live half of your life for God, and the other half like everyone else, you wouldn’t get anywhere and hate it. The judgmental looks of others can keep us from doing so many great things and from being fully God’s and letting go of our fear of rejection. It’s just about finding enough “will” within ourselves to make that decision. To just not care anymore. To just decide “so what, maybe i’ll get made fun of, but I won’t be trying to divide my life anymore”. Those who are fully God’s are always glad because they only want what God wants. They are not trying to want God on Sundays and want a drink out of depression on Mondays. They let go of anything they know God wouldn’t want and stand up for all God wants and in return live a completely open and simplified life. They’re not trying to hide anything or act in 2 different ways, They just love God, and everyone who has ever met them knows it. Its just about making up your mind to live that way. Yeah you may be sacrificing some things, but you’re sacrificing things for what you love the most.

 

“To fear to be too entirely God’s is to fear to be too happy. It’s to fear to want God’s will in all things. To fear to have too much courage, too much comfort, and too much detachment from the passions in life that, in the end, make us miserable” -Francois Fenelon (famous theologian)

 

 See when you decide to follow God and really, really, only want God and all He is, things actually become less complicated. In every situation you’re in, you find yourself asking is this what God would want for me right now? Is what I’m watching, is what I’m listening to, Is what I’m doing, really glorifying God right now? And if the answer is no, you just simply don’t do it, and in the end there’ no shame. On Sunday mornings you’re not spending the first 30 minutes of service repenting for what you did last night.

 

Instead of desiring everything you see, you are content with what you have and WHATEVER God brings your way, or DOESNT bring your way, because you know God, and you know His plan is perfect for you, and you want nothing more, and nothing less than His plan. It’s not that we can completely get away from all this world holds and all it tempts us with, but we can decide how much we want to love all of it. How much we allow it to affect us. There is a decision that must first be made in our hearts when we decide to fully follow God.

 

 At first it won’t be easy because the subtle mocking of those around you will affect every part of your being, and tempt you to just give up on the most beautiful thing you’ve ever found, but in the end when you have decided to let nothing effect you, others will see you strength, your joy, your hope in all situations, and begin to desire the very thing that they were mocking in the first place. 

 

There is only one way to love God: to take not a single step without Him, and to follow with a brave heart wherever He leads.

people.

    These are a few of my good friends that I dearly miss, their names are John Hilton and Megan Parker. I met these guys while I was at Bethel and created probably the best friendships with them.

John Hilton is from Missouri, very genuine smart guy who just enjoys life. He has such a great character about him and is a great of a friend anyone could ask for. I miss this guy, i wish we could reunite! Megan Parker will be the death of you. She is from a town called Jackson in Tennessee, and will be the kindest person you will meet. Her hair is bulletproof so don't try anything! She is sweet at heart and will be there for a friend in a time of need. I love her so much!

In late July I got the opportunity to go to Haiti with these two guys and through that, our bond became stronger. Point is that, everyone needs someone. God intended every single person in your life to impact it in a way that you can't understand. Enjoy the time with your loved ones, but don't forget about yourself. Take time to grow in the Lord and get fed by his word. And if you are having trouble, their will be friends there willing to help you.

I am grateful for my friends and family! I love and appreciate every single one of them.

" Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends;" - John 15:13

the beginning..

So, this is actually my second source to write and express what's going on in my life and what not. For starters, my name is Simon Souksanh, and I am from Nashville, TN. As of January 2, I am twenty years of age. I attended Bethel University, in McKenzie, TN, for one year to try and obtain my business degree, but that kind of fell down the drain. I had it good though..got offered a soccer scholarship and a singing scholarship to go there. Yet, like any college student would do, I just took the scholarship with the most money and that happened to be the singing scholarship. Which by far was the best choice I have made. So since I am not in school this year I have been working and trying to figure out what I really want to do in life. Currently I work at a cell phone store repairing phones and other electronics. Do I enjoy it? Ha not really, but I am grateful for that job. Hopefully next fall I will get the chance to attend Vol State to be a certified EMT (Emergency Medical Technician). The main reason why I would like to be one is because I want to someday become a firefighter and serve the community. Well this was just a bit of my life and so much more to come...